realize...

now i realize that all the fucking things make me out of focus and dont know who i am...i dont blame anybody for the stupid this shit happend to me...i always put the emotional came first and dont know why i am supposed to be here...lately i dont know why i dont get at the real track...a lot of playful and maybe i did a lot of sins...maybe...allah please forgive me for all the sins that i've made ...aminn...